Au revoir, ma petite

I got to take her home this morning for what would be her last day. I'm glad we had one more day at home and a chance to enjoy the rare treat of sun streaming through the windows.

The trip into the city to see the radiologist was long in every sense of the word. The sun setting, a fog rising, the sense of the curtain being drawn not just across the window or the day but a time in our life.

Her pain laid out in black and white on the monitor. Cancer. Not in one big mass but in lesions all over. 

We were going to wait until morning to say goodbye but couldn't.

So this ordeal that started 48 hours ago but feels like a lifetime is over.

All we can do is hold each other...

Comments

[Nance]

I'm truly sorry, V. But Amy was one of the lucky ones. She knew she was in a home full of love and care. And was chosen to go there! Think of how many never get the chance. Take care.

[Nancy]

I am so sorry, V. I am shedding tears for you and for your lovely Amy. I just read your beautiful post about how Amy entered your life, and I am glad that her last day was full of sunshine and warmth. I know you will never forget such a loved and cherished member of the family, but I hope you are at peace with your unselfish decision to let her go and spare her from more pain. ((hugs))

[mamatulip]

Oh, V. I'm so, so sorry. Sending you a big hug.

[Shirley]

Oh, what a beautiful picture of Amy ... I am so sorry. I am crying, too, for your loss. We lost our dear Hayley, our collie, before Christmas. What a terrible loss (and such pain) to lose such a part of our families and lives. My thoughts and hugs are with you all.

[echo]

Oh, I'm so sorry. At least you can take comfort in the fact that she lived a long and full life and that she was loved, just as all cats should.

[Rick]

So, so sorry. Don't cry for the end, but smile at the beginning.

[laurie]

I am so, so sorry for your loss. That is a beautiful picture. You can tell how loved and adored your Amy was.

[Mo]

Oh no. That makes me so sad, I'm crying, reading this! I'm so sorry. I've been holding my kitty close to me since I read your post yesterday, hoping for a miracle. Just know I'm sending you virtual hugs and pets on Amy's last lovely day. Let me know if I can do anything.

[Char]

So sorry. Hugs for all of you.

[wordgirl]

Awww! Veronica! I'm am just so incredibly sorry about Amy and her prognosis. I hope that your last days with her are sweet with memories.

[Mignon]

I'm so sad for you all. The suddenness - it must be terribly jarring. I'm so sorry, Veronica.

[Granola-grrrl]

V, I am feeling so sad. Pets are sort of like children and best friends-- it's hard to remember a time when they weren't there. I have a hard time remembering your house without Amy (I've been trying since yesterday). I am thinking of you and shedding my own tears for you as well. Your photo of her is beautiful.

[Tera]

I'm sorry for your loss. Looking at her picture, she looks so content and peaceful. Remember all the good times and hopefully the pain won't hurt so much.
Thinking of your family.

Tera

[Ash]

So sorry. I think the death of pets is even worse than that of people - pets don't expect anything from us except affection and they give us so much in return. *hugs*

[t]

oh no. so very sorry. i know you'll miss your gentle little girl and my heart goes out to you. glad you were able to have yesterday at home with dear Amy and were given the gift of the sun's warmth and light to enjoy together.

[Lynn]

That is a gorgeous picture of Amy. Hugs and kisses to all of you. Her presence enriched your lives beyond measure. All my love as you grieve.

[Debbie]

So sorry. What a sweet picture of a beautiful friend.

[Shirl Grrrl]

Sending you much love and deepest sympathy...

[RD]

You were both blessed to have shared your lives. She's a beauty. I'm so sorry.

[tom]

Give her a scratch "goodbye" behind the ears for me, please. Bye Amy.